40 and fabulous~follow my journey as I share the highs and lows of life, parenting and of course that crazy little thing called love.❤️x
You may recall our famous chocolate fridays~well may I now introduce you to chocolate thursday. Every thursday I collect the smallest members of the crazy gang from school and buy chocolate for all the kids (the biggest child included too hee hee).
I however have re~embarked on my weight watchers journey so treated myself to some more daffodils~don’t worry I realise I can’t eat them instead!
We also managed to grab a coffee this morning and mine looked pretty cool. ❤x
Grief~a small word with a huge meaning. It rocks up uninvited, makes itself at home and before you know it, its joining you each and every day.
Where you go, it goes.
Its like a constant shadow, always there, sometimes its quiet and gentle, other times it leaps up and slaps you in the face, catching you unaware.
It brings tears~ sometimes of happiness as it reminds you of the good times and sometimes of sadness as you ache for those things you will never have, see or do again.
They say that to grieve means you have loved and felt love that’s why it hurts so much.
Much like the sea, the waves of grief ebb and flow, back and forth,up and down. Good days and harder days.
Grief is here to stay, however it will never take away the love and memories that will live on to be cherished forever.❤x
Sometimes its the little things in life, a hot coffee whilst everyone else is sleeping, sitting by the window watching the rain drops falling against the window, bright flowers just starting to bloom. Sometimes things seem so big that we can’t appreciate anything big or small,we simply can’t see them because our eyes are blurred and our minds are full.
Sometimes we need to sit back and focus on the good because luckily life really is full of lots of good which do outweigh the bad.
Happy Sunday everyone.❤ x
I haven’t written much lately, although there seems to be lots in my head,somehow I can’t find the words~well not the right ones anyway.
As I sat on the beach earlier this sailing boat went by as I watched it sail passedI am pretty sure that Dad would be saying `keep your chin up love,theres nothing that can’t be sorted somehow’ wise words Dad, I wish you were here to say that to me now.❤x
Dad this ones for you~I know you would be surprised that me your youngest daughter and biggest wimp going went and had this done today! I was quite suprised myself to be honest but these words~your words mean so much to me.
Dad I miss you more than words can say. I heard your song before I went in so I know I have your approval.❤x
Roughly 14 yrs ago this little one used to come to work with me.
Fast forward to today and my little bundle is now a teenager and going back to said nursery for work experience!
To say I feel old and cant believe it would be an understatement but there you have it.
Time flies and everything changes,we grow, we live,love and learn and in the blink of an eye things change and before you know it you go from having a tiny baby to an independent teen fast approaching the last year of high school education.
Dream big my girl.❤x
Another wonderful weekend is drawing to a close. It’s been a busy one thats for sure. Friday night was an evening of giggles and wine with the girls.
Saturday morning saw an early start for a trip to Ikea~which was good fun all round and we celebrated surviving the trip with all 4 small people in tow with more wine and a chilled evening on the new cuddle chair which is now officially my favourite place to sit for sure!
Today we had a lovely sunny walk along the seafront spotting fishing boats and enjoying the sun. After some chocolate cake baking we had another stroll making the most of the afternoon sun and fresh air. Bedtime will be an early one for sure tonight.❤x
If there was ever a photo that could sum up the chaos of my life this could be a definite contender! All I needed at 7.35am this morning, 10 minutes before I was due to leave home.
Its fair to say that I was more upset about losing a whole cup of coffee than the fact that it covered the carpet,wall and bedding! To make matters worse I then had to de~ice the car and scribble out a note for Helenas teacher which quite frankly looked like it had been written by a 5yr old.
All this is before 8am and without coffee! Hey ho it’s Thursday though which means we are one step closer to the weekend.❤x
It’s been another busy week in the crazy household. Work,School runs, after school clubs, migraines, eye rolling and arguments with the teenagers~all pretty standard stuff really,particularly the eye~rolling because lets face it what do I know?! I am just Mum after all!
However In between those events we managed a date night at our local seaside carvery, some nice but cold walks along the beach and a very late night watching ‘4 weddings and a funeral’whilst drinking wine and playing an intellectual word game similar to scrabble, note the sarcasm when I say intellectual think more adult humour! Hee hee.
Once again its Sunday night,the weekend has disappeared far too quickly and as ever I should by now be fast asleep. Here’s hoping you had a good week and here’s to a fabulous week ahead.❤x
Yesterday I upgraded my phone and this afternoon I was checking that everything had crossed over ok,especially my text messages. I came across some messages from my Dad and as it happened as I scrolled through,the message I came to was one arranging for us to go out for dinner with Mum and Dad the night before Dan and I went to Paris.
I read it and it made me smile,I could hear his voice in that text, I tried to read some more but the tears in my eyes wouldn’t let me.
It really is true when people say you never realise how moments quickly become a memory.
I know we are lucky very lucky to have such wonderful memories to cherish now and forever. ❤x
