Today and every day I remember you.
I think of all the things I can’t do anymore~I can’t call you up, text you, hear your voice, see your face, give you a hug or tell you I love you.
I can’t tell you how much we all miss you more than words will ever say.
What I can do is hold onto the memories you gave us, the ones that will live on in us all forever.
You taught us so much (yes we were listening!),you have showed us the true meaning of family and love.
You were a tower of strength, the boss of our family and will always be our hero and a true legend.
We will raise a glass to you today and say a big cheers.
Don’t ever forget its not goodbye its see you later.
Love you always x x x
This was yesterday but I got a little distracted by trying (unsuccessfully) to fix my hoover and forgot to post!
You know that feeling you get when its your day off and your going out for coffee and you decide that instead of your boring flats you will wear heels instead?
In my head this seemed like a fab idea, all was going well until we had parked the car and began walking to the coffee shop. After a few steps it became apparent that the gaps in the walkway were not designed with any one wearing heels in mind as pretty soon with almost every step I took I found myself getting my heel caught.
To avoid breaking either my ankles or my boots I had to adopt a unique style of walking which consisted of almost walking sideways~think of a crab scuttling around and you probably won’t go far wrong for a lifelike image!
Fortunately the coffee was good as was the company so I can’t complain.
I decided that a change of footwear was probably necessary before the school run this afternoon to avoid further embarrassment and indeed injury.
Whilst at home I noticed my boy had left half an easter egg casually lying around in his room~he is either very trusting or a bit silly leaving it in my line of vision~fortunately for him, I neither hid it or ate it but I must confess that the latter was extremely tempting.
After the school run it was a typical afternoon, 2 trips to tesco (because one is never enough quite clearly!), I made dinner and was contemplating washing up when I had a very nice suprise delivery from a friend of mine in the form of a ‘halo’ ice cream it tasted fab and the wrapper made me giggle hehe.
I then proceeded to torture myself by taking the hoover apart, well most of it apart from 2 screws which refused to be moved, after nearly 2 hours it remains still not fixed on the lounge floor~well tomorrow is another day and all that jazz.
Bedtime has rolled around in a flash and I am hopeful for some sleep, as much as I am rocking the bags big enough to get a months worth of shopping in underneath my eyes, a good snooze would be much appreciated.
Well one can dream or not as the case may be! ❤ x
When you confiscate the teenagers phone and get constantly reminded by them that you have done so!
So far the conversations are going some thing like this~
‘What time do you finish your club after school?’
‘ Well it should be about 4.30pm but might be earlier or later, obviously I won’t be able to let you know as I don’t have my phone.’
‘ What time is Dad picking you up later?
He said he would text me and let me know but obviously I haven’t had my phone so…..’
So far this is my personal favourite ‘Have you done your revision for your test?’
‘No because EVERYTHING I need for that is on my phone which I don’t have.
Oh ok and you have no other means of getting the information that you need?’ ‘No of course not!’
‘No worries then I will just phone the school and explain the situation about you being phoneless and why you are in fact without said phone and maybe your teacher could help you??’
‘Urgh Muuuummmmmm!!!! Its fine I will manage!’
Funny that I thought you might.
Teenagers hey.❤ x
You may recall our famous chocolate fridays~well may I now introduce you to chocolate thursday. Every thursday I collect the smallest members of the crazy gang from school and buy chocolate for all the kids (the biggest child included too hee hee).
I however have re~embarked on my weight watchers journey so treated myself to some more daffodils~don’t worry I realise I can’t eat them instead!
We also managed to grab a coffee this morning and mine looked pretty cool. ❤x
Grief~a small word with a huge meaning. It rocks up uninvited, makes itself at home and before you know it, its joining you each and every day.
Where you go, it goes.
Its like a constant shadow, always there, sometimes its quiet and gentle, other times it leaps up and slaps you in the face, catching you unaware.
It brings tears~ sometimes of happiness as it reminds you of the good times and sometimes of sadness as you ache for those things you will never have, see or do again.
They say that to grieve means you have loved and felt love that’s why it hurts so much.
Much like the sea, the waves of grief ebb and flow, back and forth,up and down. Good days and harder days.
Grief is here to stay, however it will never take away the love and memories that will live on to be cherished forever.❤x
Dad this ones for you~I know you would be surprised that me your youngest daughter and biggest wimp going went and had this done today! I was quite suprised myself to be honest but these words~your words mean so much to me.
Dad I miss you more than words can say. I heard your song before I went in so I know I have your approval.❤x
Roughly 14 yrs ago this little one used to come to work with me.
Fast forward to today and my little bundle is now a teenager and going back to said nursery for work experience!
To say I feel old and cant believe it would be an understatement but there you have it.
Time flies and everything changes,we grow, we live,love and learn and in the blink of an eye things change and before you know it you go from having a tiny baby to an independent teen fast approaching the last year of high school education.
Dream big my girl.❤x
Another wonderful weekend is drawing to a close. It’s been a busy one thats for sure. Friday night was an evening of giggles and wine with the girls.
Saturday morning saw an early start for a trip to Ikea~which was good fun all round and we celebrated surviving the trip with all 4 small people in tow with more wine and a chilled evening on the new cuddle chair which is now officially my favourite place to sit for sure!
Today we had a lovely sunny walk along the seafront spotting fishing boats and enjoying the sun. After some chocolate cake baking we had another stroll making the most of the afternoon sun and fresh air. Bedtime will be an early one for sure tonight.❤x
If there was ever a photo that could sum up the chaos of my life this could be a definite contender! All I needed at 7.35am this morning, 10 minutes before I was due to leave home.
Its fair to say that I was more upset about losing a whole cup of coffee than the fact that it covered the carpet,wall and bedding! To make matters worse I then had to de~ice the car and scribble out a note for Helenas teacher which quite frankly looked like it had been written by a 5yr old.
All this is before 8am and without coffee! Hey ho it’s Thursday though which means we are one step closer to the weekend.❤x
It’s been another busy week in the crazy household. Work,School runs, after school clubs, migraines, eye rolling and arguments with the teenagers~all pretty standard stuff really,particularly the eye~rolling because lets face it what do I know?! I am just Mum after all!
However In between those events we managed a date night at our local seaside carvery, some nice but cold walks along the beach and a very late night watching ‘4 weddings and a funeral’whilst drinking wine and playing an intellectual word game similar to scrabble, note the sarcasm when I say intellectual think more adult humour! Hee hee.
Once again its Sunday night,the weekend has disappeared far too quickly and as ever I should by now be fast asleep. Here’s hoping you had a good week and here’s to a fabulous week ahead.❤x