We are sailing

On Thursday,I had my first session with a counsellor,to help me try and make sense of everything since Dad has passed.

I had never met this lady before,she knew nothing about me or my life.but after 50mins of crying and laughing (from me!) She said ‘I can tell what a wonderful,strong supportive family you all are’.

That brought yet more tears to my eye~I felt proud that in such a short space of time she could see and feel so much about our family life.

As with lots of families,we may not live close by, we may not talk every day,we may even fall out from time to time but the fact remains,that what we do have is an unbreakable bond held together by love.

Dad was a keen fisherman,he steered our ship through stormy weather,sunshine and cloudy days. He rode the waves with us,all of the ups and downs,the laughter and the tears. No problem was ever too big or too small~he was always there with advice,even if at the time you might of thought you didn’t need it!

He was our anchor and helped to keep life plain sailing even through the darkest of times.

Losing Dad has left a hole in my heart that can never be filled. He really was one of a kind and truly meant something to everyone who’s lifes he touched.

Although he may no longer be physically here with us~his legacy guide’s us through and gives us the strength and courage to pull together as a family.

One of his biggest lessons he taught us is the meaning of love,respect,family and friendship. He showed us how to share love as a family and welcome others into it too.

I often joke that if you are a part of my life,you are a part of our families life too,that’s the way it goes.

As the saying says ‘a problem shared is a problem halved’, well in this family if you have a problem it can always be shared between us and thats a whole lot of sharing to go round!

As I continue to navigate my journey which has undoubtedly taken some very different pathways lately.

I would like to thank everyone who is with me for the ride,you are all amazing, wiping away my tears, giving me hugs and reasons to smile, a shoulder to cry on or an ear to listen.

Life is made up of moments,memories, family, friendship and above all love.

Whatever you do cherish these things, hold them close and dont be afraid to show your emotions, tell people how you feel about them, shout it from the rooftops if you have to.

We get one shot at this crazy thing we call life~lets make it the best we can,forgive easily and love well.

❤x

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These kids drive me to wine~even though they aren’t here! They’ve been gone for less than 2hours and I miss them already.
Its too quiet and I have no arguments to referee.

This co~parenting business doesn’t get any easier, saying goodbye to them with a smile on my face, then having a few quiet tears when I shut the door.
Don’t get me wrong I am grateful that they have both parents who love and care for them so much,and step parents who play a huge part in their life’s too.

I am grateful that between us~that’s a whole lot of love to go around.
Sometimes though knowing they are off to make memories without me,sharing times I will never know about,it does pull on my heart strings. It just goes to show you never really know where this path of life will take you.

All you can do is keep moving forwards,keep smiling and keep loving. Life is too short for anything less.❤x

Memories are made of this…

Its been a busy weekend here at the crazy household.
Yesterday we walked and shopped for hours quite literally.

Today we spent a lovely afternoon at the beach,having a belated birthday picnic for Helly. This is a tradition we have had since the children’s first birthdays and today 15yrs later we are still going strong.

Some dynamics may be different but the love that bonds us all together as family and friends will never change and that is something I am truly grateful for.

Now I am up to my eyes in packing~the kids are off on holiday with their Dad.
I know they will have an amazing time,but even now after doing this for quite a few years~its still an odd feeling as you get your children ready for an adventure that you are not a part of.
It’s going to be quiet without them that’s for sure!

❤x

Dad

Dad….

Today and every day I remember you.
I think of all the things I can’t do anymore~I can’t call you up, text you, hear your voice, see your face, give you a hug or tell you I love you.

I can’t tell you how much we all miss you more than words will ever say.

What I can do is hold onto the memories you gave us, the ones that will live on in us all forever.

You taught us so much (yes we were listening!),you have showed us the true meaning of family and love.

You were a tower of strength, the boss of our family and will always be our hero and a true legend.

We will raise a glass to you today and say a big cheers.

Don’t ever forget its not goodbye its see you later.

Love you always x x x

#MeatMatters Challenge

This week in the crazy household we have taken part in the #MeatMatters challenge.

We have made two quick and easy dishes using Lamb and Beef,both of which are naturally rich in protein.

Lamb provides 4 essential vitamins that help reduce tiredness and fatigue~something I think is helpful for everyone with the busy lives we lead today.

Beef provides eight essential vitamins and minerals which support good health and well being, another bonus and a great reason to try new recipes to entice the whole family.

First up we made Beef Quesadilla’s

You will need~

*Soft tortilla wraps

*Beef strips

*Red and green peppers

*Mushrooms

*Onions

*Cheese~thinly sliced.

Firstly gently brown the onions,peppers and mushrooms in a pan, then add the beef strips and cook until thoroughly cooked. Line another frying pan with a soft tortilla wrap, add the beef and vegetables, cover those with the sliced cheese and top with another soft tortilla wrap. Press down gently and heat lightly until the cheese starts to melt and seals the wraps. Turn the wraps and once lightly browned on each side, remove and cut into quarters, serve with salad or sides of your choice.

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Now for the lamb, I decided to go for a twist on a classic dish and made Chilli Shepherds pie.

You will need~

*Lamb Mince

*Onions

*Baked Beans

*Fresh Chillies

*Chopped tomatoes

*Potatoes (butter and milk for mashing)

Peel and chop the potatoes, put on to boil whilst the lamb is cooking.

Gently cook the onions until softened and add the chillies and lamb mince.

Cook until thoroughly cooked, add the beans and tomatoes, stirring well.

Remove the cooked lamb and place into an oven proof dish. Mash the potatoes with the butter and milk then cover the mince and pop under the grill for 5~10mins until golden brown.

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There you have it two quick, easy and tasty meals providing various vitamins and minerals for you and your family including~Vitamins b6 and b12, pantothenic acid,niacin and zinc.

Enjoy.❤x

*This post is an entry for the #MeatMatters challenge sponsored by simply Beef and lamb*

Chocolate Thursday’s

You may recall our famous chocolate fridays~well may I now introduce you to chocolate thursday. Every thursday I collect the smallest members of the crazy gang from school and buy chocolate for all the kids (the biggest child included too hee hee).

I however have re~embarked on my weight watchers journey so treated myself to some more daffodils~don’t worry I realise I can’t eat them instead!
We also managed to grab a coffee this morning and mine looked pretty cool. x

All my love,all my life.

Dad this ones for you~I know you would be surprised that me your youngest daughter and biggest wimp going went and had this done today! I was quite suprised myself to be honest but these words~your words mean so much to me.

Dad I miss you more than words can say. I heard your song before I went in so I know I have your approval.❤x

Time Flies

Roughly 14 yrs ago this little one used to come to work with me.

Fast forward to today and my little bundle is now a teenager and going back to said nursery for work experience!

To say I feel old and cant believe it would be an understatement but there you have it.

Time flies and everything changes,we grow, we live,love and learn and in the blink of an eye things change and before you know it you go from having a tiny baby to an independent teen fast approaching the last year of high school education.

Dream big my girl.❤x

Family Time

Another wonderful weekend is drawing to a close. It’s been a busy one thats for sure. Friday night was an evening of giggles and wine with the girls.

Saturday morning saw an early start for a trip to Ikea~which was good fun all round and we celebrated surviving the trip with all 4 small people in tow with more wine and a chilled evening on the new cuddle chair which is now officially my favourite place to sit for sure!

Today we had a lovely sunny walk along the seafront spotting fishing boats and enjoying the sun. After some chocolate cake baking we had another stroll making the most of the afternoon sun and fresh air. Bedtime will be an early one for sure tonight.❤x

Busy

It’s been another busy week in the crazy household. Work,School runs, after school clubs, migraines, eye rolling and arguments with the teenagers~all pretty standard stuff really,particularly the eye~rolling because lets face it what do I know?! I am just Mum after all!

However In between those events we managed a date night at our local seaside carvery, some nice but cold walks along the beach and a very late night watching ‘4 weddings and a funeral’whilst drinking wine and playing an intellectual word game similar to scrabble, note the sarcasm when I say intellectual think more adult humour! Hee hee.

Once again its Sunday night,the weekend has disappeared far too quickly and as ever I should by now be fast asleep. Here’s hoping you had a good week and here’s to a fabulous week ahead.❤x