One of those days…

Today is Thursday~nothing extraordinary about that,except its not just been Thursday~its been one of ‘those days’.

One of those days where you wake up feeling tired,you rush around from work,straight to visit a Sixth form with your eldest child and wonder where on earth the years have gone,it only seems like yesterday we were waving her off for her first day at school and now her last days there are looming large.

One of those days when you miss someone so bad,you would literally give anything to hear their voice or see their face for real,not just in the dreams that feel so real they can be heartbreaking at times.

One of those days when being a single parent hits you hard~for no particular reason other than simply because some days are just hard.

Everyday is a juggle but I guess some days the weight of what we juggle feels heavier and today was ‘one of those days’.❤x

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Thursday thoughts…

Thursday thoughts…

Not every story has a fairytale ending.

Not every question you ask will receive an answer.

Not every chapter will give you closure.

Don’t waste your time or energy on people/things who aren’t willing to treat you the same, use that precious energy and time for those who want to share everything this crazy life has to throw at you.

Don’t look back in anger,look forwards with a smile on your face.

The only way is up. ❤x

We are sailing

On Thursday,I had my first session with a counsellor,to help me try and make sense of everything since Dad has passed.

I had never met this lady before,she knew nothing about me or my life.but after 50mins of crying and laughing (from me!) She said ‘I can tell what a wonderful,strong supportive family you all are’.

That brought yet more tears to my eye~I felt proud that in such a short space of time she could see and feel so much about our family life.

As with lots of families,we may not live close by, we may not talk every day,we may even fall out from time to time but the fact remains,that what we do have is an unbreakable bond held together by love.

Dad was a keen fisherman,he steered our ship through stormy weather,sunshine and cloudy days. He rode the waves with us,all of the ups and downs,the laughter and the tears. No problem was ever too big or too small~he was always there with advice,even if at the time you might of thought you didn’t need it!

He was our anchor and helped to keep life plain sailing even through the darkest of times.

Losing Dad has left a hole in my heart that can never be filled. He really was one of a kind and truly meant something to everyone who’s lifes he touched.

Although he may no longer be physically here with us~his legacy guide’s us through and gives us the strength and courage to pull together as a family.

One of his biggest lessons he taught us is the meaning of love,respect,family and friendship. He showed us how to share love as a family and welcome others into it too.

I often joke that if you are a part of my life,you are a part of our families life too,that’s the way it goes.

As the saying says ‘a problem shared is a problem halved’, well in this family if you have a problem it can always be shared between us and thats a whole lot of sharing to go round!

As I continue to navigate my journey which has undoubtedly taken some very different pathways lately.

I would like to thank everyone who is with me for the ride,you are all amazing, wiping away my tears, giving me hugs and reasons to smile, a shoulder to cry on or an ear to listen.

Life is made up of moments,memories, family, friendship and above all love.

Whatever you do cherish these things, hold them close and dont be afraid to show your emotions, tell people how you feel about them, shout it from the rooftops if you have to.

We get one shot at this crazy thing we call life~lets make it the best we can,forgive easily and love well.

❤x

Chapters

This post popped up as a memory from last year.
So much has changed within that year but the sentiment remains the same.
As I continue my journey through this crazy life, I do so with some people sadly missing.
Although they may no longer be a part of my life, the memories will help shape my future.❤x

Life is like a book,it’s made up of stories,pictures and words.

Some chapters are fun and exciting,some are slow and may even seem a little dull.
Some we want to last forever and never end.
Others we want to skip through quickly hoping that better things are waiting for us around that corner,with a turn of a page or 2.

These chapters are shaped by our lives, our hopes,dreams and disappointment.

They are narrated by us,read by others and at times judged by those who feel they have to the right to do so.

Some people may even be jealous of your story, to that I say go ahead and write your own story, fill your book with chapters of love and happiness.

May the happy pages outweigh the sad ones, may the good times prevail. May love guide and protect you whilst you navigate this crazy life.

All the while never forgetting that it’s never too late to turn a page and use that blank paper to rewrite your dreams and bring them to life.

To everyone who makes my very own book the bright, colourful, funny,crazy, page turning ‘novel’ that it is, I thank you all from the bottom of my heart, you are all fabulous and I love sharing the highs and lows with you all.
Much love.❤x

If there is one thing I am good at,its putting things off and thinking of lots of different excuses not to deal with them.

This morning was looking like being no exception to that rule as I woke up feeling slightly fragile owing totally to the 2 bottles ofwine too many we consumed last night!

So with my head feeling less than fresh,I bit the bullet and went and faced my weigh in which I have avoided for the last few weeks. I was pleasantly surprised to find that I had stayed the same. Now if I hadn’t of gone, I would of told myself that I would have an extra good week and go next Saturday instead, which quite frankly is most unlikely!

I guess thats the thing isn’t it,actually when we deal with things head on,it makes them clearer and whilst life doesn’t always give us what we want it does at times give us what we need.

I have to say though the fact that the swimming pool cafe had no coffee this morning was something I most definitely did not need,infact I needed all the coffee this morn!

Still a stroll around the pond and a hot sugary doughnut soon sorted that out and even gave me the oomph to clean out the car and tackle the mountain of washing I have.

It didn’t do much to help my mood when I realised that the freezer had defrosted itself with a weeks worth of food in it!! Oh the joys of life, summed up in one very hungover morning!

Happy Saturday everyone.❤ x

These boots weren’t made for walking?!

This was yesterday but I got a little distracted by trying (unsuccessfully) to fix my hoover and forgot to post!
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You know that feeling you get when its your day off and your going out for coffee and you decide that instead of your boring flats you will wear heels instead?

In my head this seemed like a fab idea, all was going well until we had parked the car and began walking to the coffee shop. After a few steps it became apparent that the gaps in the walkway were not designed with any one wearing heels in mind as pretty soon with almost every step I took I found myself getting my heel caught.

To avoid breaking either my ankles or my boots I had to adopt a unique style of walking which consisted of almost walking sideways~think of a crab scuttling around and you probably won’t go far wrong for a lifelike image!

Fortunately the coffee was good as was the company so I can’t complain.

I decided that a change of footwear was probably necessary before the school run this afternoon to avoid further embarrassment and indeed injury.

Whilst at home I noticed my boy had left half an easter egg casually lying around in his room~he is either very trusting or a bit silly leaving it in my line of vision~fortunately for him, I neither hid it or ate it but I must confess that the latter was extremely tempting.

After the school run it was a typical afternoon, 2 trips to tesco (because one is never enough quite clearly!), I made dinner and was contemplating washing up when I had a very nice suprise delivery from a friend of mine in the form of a ‘halo’ ice cream it tasted fab and the wrapper made me giggle hehe.

I then proceeded to torture myself by taking the hoover apart, well most of it apart from 2 screws which refused to be moved, after nearly 2 hours it remains still not fixed on the lounge floor~well tomorrow is another day and all that jazz.

Bedtime has rolled around in a flash and I am hopeful for some sleep, as much as I am rocking the bags big enough to get a months worth of shopping in underneath my eyes, a good snooze would be much appreciated.
Well one can dream or not as the case may be! ❤ x

Parent life

When you confiscate the teenagers phone and get constantly reminded by them that you have done so!

So far the conversations are going some thing like this~

‘What time do you finish your club after school?’
‘ Well it should be about 4.30pm but might be earlier or later, obviously I won’t be able to let you know as I don’t have my phone.’

‘ What time is Dad picking you up later?
He said he would text me and let me know but obviously I haven’t had my phone so…..’

So far this is my personal favourite ‘Have you done your revision for your test?’
‘No because EVERYTHING I need for that is on my phone which I don’t have.
Oh ok and you have no other means of getting the information that you need?’ ‘No of course not!’
‘No worries then I will just phone the school and explain the situation about you being phoneless and why you are in fact without said phone and maybe your teacher could help you??’

‘Urgh Muuuummmmmm!!!! Its fine I will manage!’

Funny that I thought you might.
Teenagers hey.❤ x

Family Time

Another wonderful weekend is drawing to a close. It’s been a busy one thats for sure. Friday night was an evening of giggles and wine with the girls.

Saturday morning saw an early start for a trip to Ikea~which was good fun all round and we celebrated surviving the trip with all 4 small people in tow with more wine and a chilled evening on the new cuddle chair which is now officially my favourite place to sit for sure!

Today we had a lovely sunny walk along the seafront spotting fishing boats and enjoying the sun. After some chocolate cake baking we had another stroll making the most of the afternoon sun and fresh air. Bedtime will be an early one for sure tonight.❤x

Chaos

If there was ever a photo that could sum up the chaos of my life this could be a definite contender! All I needed at 7.35am this morning, 10 minutes before I was due to leave home.

Its fair to say that I was more upset about losing a whole cup of coffee than the fact that it covered the carpet,wall and bedding! To make matters worse I then had to de~ice the car and scribble out a note for Helenas teacher which quite frankly looked like it had been written by a 5yr old.

All this is before 8am and without coffee! Hey ho it’s Thursday though which means we are one step closer to the weekend.x