We are sailing

On Thursday,I had my first session with a counsellor,to help me try and make sense of everything since Dad has passed.

I had never met this lady before,she knew nothing about me or my life.but after 50mins of crying and laughing (from me!) She said ‘I can tell what a wonderful,strong supportive family you all are’.

That brought yet more tears to my eye~I felt proud that in such a short space of time she could see and feel so much about our family life.

As with lots of families,we may not live close by, we may not talk every day,we may even fall out from time to time but the fact remains,that what we do have is an unbreakable bond held together by love.

Dad was a keen fisherman,he steered our ship through stormy weather,sunshine and cloudy days. He rode the waves with us,all of the ups and downs,the laughter and the tears. No problem was ever too big or too small~he was always there with advice,even if at the time you might of thought you didn’t need it!

He was our anchor and helped to keep life plain sailing even through the darkest of times.

Losing Dad has left a hole in my heart that can never be filled. He really was one of a kind and truly meant something to everyone who’s lifes he touched.

Although he may no longer be physically here with us~his legacy guide’s us through and gives us the strength and courage to pull together as a family.

One of his biggest lessons he taught us is the meaning of love,respect,family and friendship. He showed us how to share love as a family and welcome others into it too.

I often joke that if you are a part of my life,you are a part of our families life too,that’s the way it goes.

As the saying says ‘a problem shared is a problem halved’, well in this family if you have a problem it can always be shared between us and thats a whole lot of sharing to go round!

As I continue to navigate my journey which has undoubtedly taken some very different pathways lately.

I would like to thank everyone who is with me for the ride,you are all amazing, wiping away my tears, giving me hugs and reasons to smile, a shoulder to cry on or an ear to listen.

Life is made up of moments,memories, family, friendship and above all love.

Whatever you do cherish these things, hold them close and dont be afraid to show your emotions, tell people how you feel about them, shout it from the rooftops if you have to.

We get one shot at this crazy thing we call life~lets make it the best we can,forgive easily and love well.

❤x

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Memories are made of this…

Its been a busy weekend here at the crazy household.
Yesterday we walked and shopped for hours quite literally.

Today we spent a lovely afternoon at the beach,having a belated birthday picnic for Helly. This is a tradition we have had since the children’s first birthdays and today 15yrs later we are still going strong.

Some dynamics may be different but the love that bonds us all together as family and friends will never change and that is something I am truly grateful for.

Now I am up to my eyes in packing~the kids are off on holiday with their Dad.
I know they will have an amazing time,but even now after doing this for quite a few years~its still an odd feeling as you get your children ready for an adventure that you are not a part of.
It’s going to be quiet without them that’s for sure!

❤x

Chapters

This post popped up as a memory from last year.
So much has changed within that year but the sentiment remains the same.
As I continue my journey through this crazy life, I do so with some people sadly missing.
Although they may no longer be a part of my life, the memories will help shape my future.❤x

Life is like a book,it’s made up of stories,pictures and words.

Some chapters are fun and exciting,some are slow and may even seem a little dull.
Some we want to last forever and never end.
Others we want to skip through quickly hoping that better things are waiting for us around that corner,with a turn of a page or 2.

These chapters are shaped by our lives, our hopes,dreams and disappointment.

They are narrated by us,read by others and at times judged by those who feel they have to the right to do so.

Some people may even be jealous of your story, to that I say go ahead and write your own story, fill your book with chapters of love and happiness.

May the happy pages outweigh the sad ones, may the good times prevail. May love guide and protect you whilst you navigate this crazy life.

All the while never forgetting that it’s never too late to turn a page and use that blank paper to rewrite your dreams and bring them to life.

To everyone who makes my very own book the bright, colourful, funny,crazy, page turning ‘novel’ that it is, I thank you all from the bottom of my heart, you are all fabulous and I love sharing the highs and lows with you all.
Much love.❤x

Family Time

Another wonderful weekend is drawing to a close. It’s been a busy one thats for sure. Friday night was an evening of giggles and wine with the girls.

Saturday morning saw an early start for a trip to Ikea~which was good fun all round and we celebrated surviving the trip with all 4 small people in tow with more wine and a chilled evening on the new cuddle chair which is now officially my favourite place to sit for sure!

Today we had a lovely sunny walk along the seafront spotting fishing boats and enjoying the sun. After some chocolate cake baking we had another stroll making the most of the afternoon sun and fresh air. Bedtime will be an early one for sure tonight.❤x

Moments and Memories

Yesterday I upgraded my phone and this afternoon I was checking that everything had crossed over ok,especially my text messages. I came across some messages from my Dad and as it happened as I scrolled through,the message I came to was one arranging for us to go out for dinner with Mum and Dad the night before Dan and I went to Paris.

I read it and it made me smile,I could hear his voice in that text, I tried to read some more but the tears in my eyes wouldn’t let me.

It really is true when people say you never realise how moments quickly become a memory.

I know we are lucky very lucky to have such wonderful memories to cherish now and forever. ❤x

Date Night

So last night was date night. Of course I stuck to my usual tradition of always being late, I couldnt decide what to wear and after emptying my wardrobe trying to find the top I was looking for time was fast running away from me.

I was so hot but not in a good way~more the temperature way as in so hot I feared my make up might melt off of my face!

Anyway after leaving the house 30mins later than I had planned and getting stuck in traffic I made it.

We had a lovely evening, despite the restaurant we planned to go to being closed for its christmas do!

I didn’t take a picture last night so am sharing a different one of us.

Happy #humpday everyone, keep smiling.❤x

2018

I can honestly say that 2018 has been the year with the biggest highs and heartbreaking lows.I will be taking the best memories into 2019 and holding on tight to them, whilst keeping them close to my heart.

If this year has taught me anything,it is that life can change in the blink of an eye.
Always try and live with no regrets, love well and be happy, surely life is too short and too precious for any thing else.

As one year draws to a close and another one begins,lets hope 2019 is a good one.

Wishing you all a new year that is full of happiness.

See you later 2018 ❤x

Beautiful ride

I love words, writing, pictures, quotes.
They are so powerful and radiate such meaning.

I love to see things when I’m out and about, this quote I particularly love, I love what it says and what it means but I also love that it was painted on a seaside shop window.

I didn’t see it or indeed take the picture, my daughter did, she took the picture and sent it to me because she knew I would like it.

Sometimes these things have a habit of popping up and jumping out at you, maybe a little reminder of how beautiful life is, maybe we should all slow down and appreciate the things around us~the people we have in our lives and the memories they share with us and help us to create big and small.

So yes life is a beautiful ride~smile when you can, laugh everyday,love with all of your heart and hang on tight!❤x

What is love?

When I was young,love seemed like a fairy tale.

Girl meets boy and they have their very own happy ever after.

As I grew up I began to realise that love doesn’t quite work like that. Love isn’t always hearts and flowers.

Sometimes it’s wiping away tears and giving apologies, because love can be stupid and also foolish too it’s not perfect but when two people love each other they take the good with the bad.

Sometimes it’s staying up all night finding the solution and never letting go.

It’s about believing in each other no matter what and seeing clearly when one of you can’t.

It’s hugs in the rain and kissing away the pain.

Love may be many things and it shows itself in lots of ways. Above all it’s wonderful and caring,kind,patient and always there.

❤x

Chapters

Life is like a book,it’s made up of stories,pictures and words.

Some chapters are fun and exciting,some are slow and may even seem a little dull.
Some we want to last forever and never end.
Others we want to skip through quickly hoping that better things are waiting for us around that corner,with a turn of a page or 2.

These chapters are shaped by our lives, our hopes,dreams and disappointment.

They are narrated by us,read by others and at times judged by those who feel they have to the right to do so.

Some people may even be jealous of your story, to that I say go ahead and write your own story, fill your book with chapters of love and happiness.

May the happy pages outweigh the sad ones, may the good times prevail. May love guide and protect you whilst you navigate this crazy life.

All the while never forgetting that it’s never too late to turn a page and use that blank paper to rewrite your dreams and bring them to life.

To everyone who makes my very own book the bright, colourful, funny,crazy, page turning ‘novel’ that it is, I thank you all from the bottom of my heart, you are all fabulous and I love sharing the highs and lows with you all.
Much love.❤x