Dad

Dad….

Today and every day I remember you.
I think of all the things I can’t do anymore~I can’t call you up, text you, hear your voice, see your face, give you a hug or tell you I love you.

I can’t tell you how much we all miss you more than words will ever say.

What I can do is hold onto the memories you gave us, the ones that will live on in us all forever.

You taught us so much (yes we were listening!),you have showed us the true meaning of family and love.

You were a tower of strength, the boss of our family and will always be our hero and a true legend.

We will raise a glass to you today and say a big cheers.

Don’t ever forget its not goodbye its see you later.

Love you always x x x

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Capture the memories

I am not a fan of having my picture taken,unless its a selfie that has been attempted many times and edited until I am happy with it.

Our Dad was always snapping photos, random moments when we weren’t looking or weren’t camera ready.

I would often take his phone and say ‘oh dad thats awful, delete that one or please don’t put that on facebook’.

Looking back does any of that matter? Who cares if an image of me was captured when I felt I wasn’t looking my best? Those pictures are moments in time,memories captured right in the moment. Moments we will never get back again.

There comes a time in our lives when photographs are the only visual representation of loved ones and life itself, be in the photos, be happy, be impulsive, be present.

Have those moments to look back on, to laugh, to cry, to remember but mostly to love.❤x

Family Time

Another wonderful weekend is drawing to a close. It’s been a busy one thats for sure. Friday night was an evening of giggles and wine with the girls.

Saturday morning saw an early start for a trip to Ikea~which was good fun all round and we celebrated surviving the trip with all 4 small people in tow with more wine and a chilled evening on the new cuddle chair which is now officially my favourite place to sit for sure!

Today we had a lovely sunny walk along the seafront spotting fishing boats and enjoying the sun. After some chocolate cake baking we had another stroll making the most of the afternoon sun and fresh air. Bedtime will be an early one for sure tonight.❤x

Trips and stumbles

Busy day here again, this afternoon was a trip quite literally to the park.

2 adults and 6 kids~5 of whom were in my care!

The reason I say it was literally a trip is because yours truly did a spectacular trip and launched/stumbled myself around the kids swings narrowly missing a big puddle of mud.

I did however manage not to drop the youngest (3yr old) whom I was helping out of the large swing seat so I count that as a definite bonus.

Right at the last minute I managed to steady myself just before I feared I was going face down into that yucky brown stuff. What I must of looked like to everyone else I dread to think! Still I Styled it out (I think) and had a good giggle too.

Well if you can’t embarrass the kids now and then what’s the point in being a parent~ hee hee.

Happy #humpday to you all.❤️x

No one told me.

No one told me that one day I would move away from my family( and miss them being close by)but make wonderful new friends at the same time.

No one told me that one day I would be a parent, they didn’t tell me that for 5 years I would be doing that job alone.

No one told me that after those years I would meet someone who does so much for us, I don’t have to parent alone anymore.

No one told me that some days I would be arguing with miniature versions of myself one minute and laughing at the craziness of them the next.

No one told me my heart would be so full and that one day I would stand outside getting wet repairing a trampoline in the rain because I know it will make them happy, and their happiness means more to me than they will ever know.

No one told me these things because no one knew. No one has a crystal ball, we can’t predict the future, but what we can do is make the most of every day. Forgive when we need to, start each day afresh.

Love with all of our hearts .

Make each and every day count.

❤️x

Numbers

Last night was one of those times when you really have to question your own ability as a full fledged adult and I’ll tell you why.

I was paying for my car parking using my debit card~or should I say attempting to pay for it~after 3 unsuccessful attempts at entering my pin, whilst confidently declaring that there simply must be a fault with the machine itself, I decided to phone my daughter and ask her if she could remember it.

Upon answering the phone she was unable to hide the disbelief in her voice aswell as the amusement!

She then confirmed the PIN number and the fact that I had entered one digit wrong!

Followed by saying ‘oh Mummy, trust you’ oops!

It was a funny end to a lovely eve~we had only one of four kids and went to McDonald’s, then bowling and back home for a quick dip in the hot tub.

Needless to say they beat me at bowling but I’ll let them off for being wonderful company for the eve.

Half~term it may be but there’s lots to do today including dodging the rain showers so I can get outside and repair the trampoline enclosure~wish me luck with that one.

Wishing you all a happy Tuesday.❤️x

Sunset thoughts on a Saturday

I feel I’ve been quite quiet lately on the blogging front~it’s unusual for me to be quiet although I do find that often there’s not much of an in between for that~either I’ll talk for England or won’t say more than two words in one go~I’m sure at times the latter is preferable!

It’s been a funny old week that seems to of stretched on forever.

It’s mainly consisted of being super tired and very much lacking in sleep and arguing with my teenager!

Of course there has been some happy moments too but sometimes they get overshadowed.

I know I’m not the first and certainly won’t be the last parent who is sitting down and thinking over and over about arguments or upset with their children. Wondering if it could of been dealt with differently, and indeed at times wondering what (if anything!)they’ve done wrong to find themselves in these situations.

One thing is for sure this parenting lark isn’t for the faint hearted, and if anyone could please tell me that the teenage years get easier it would be much appreciated~lie if you must but just do it hee hee.

On a happier note I’m typing this as I catch up with the one programme guaranteed to make me smile~first dates. I’ve got my feet up, a candle lit and of course a coffee on the table. All is quiet here in the crazy household, I’m hoping for two things~1. Some sleep and 2. A lie in.

Neither one of those things is guaranteed or indeed likely but hey ho a girl can dream (if sleep permits it of course!). ❤️x

Last first date.

Exactly one year ago, ,I couldn’t find my shoes, didn’t know what to wear, was running late and took the longest route ever as I was about to embark on my last first date.

Exactly one year ago I didn’t know this was to be my last first date but as fate would have it that’s exactly what it was!

May 20th marks the start of a journey, our journey together. So much has happened in this time, it’s gone so quick, the saying goes time flies when your having fun and its certainly fun with lots more exciting adventures to come.

I’ve found my soul~mate,my best friend,all thanks to that ‘crazy little thing called love’ ❤️x

Pull~don’t push.

I’m sure I’m not the only one who has ever pushed a door which clearly said pull or vice~versa.

This very analogy got me thinking don’t push away those who you love and care about~pull them closer and let them love you and support you.

It’s no secret and probably no surprise that I am better at writing about how I feel than actually saying it sometimes, my mouth has a habit of running away with itself before my brain is fully engaged!

Hence I love to write it clears my head and allows me to think properly and clearly.

We all know a problem shared is a problem halved~even when that seems like the hardest thing to do, try and find a way to do it, often things build up and can seem far worse and unsolvable when they are locked up in your own thoughts.

❤️❤️❤️

On that note last night my thoughts were Interrupted by a very unwelcome army of ants marching around my lounge and indeed one of two brave ones decided to have a stroll up my arm!

That was the last straw for me. Those tiny little things reduced me to tears!

I am so very grateful to have such wonderful people in my life and I know that I will most certainly be practising the pull don’t push way of doing things.

I truly believe that love holds the key to unlocking any door however big or small.❤️x