Today is Thursday~nothing extraordinary about that,except its not just been Thursday~its been one of ‘those days’.
One of those days where you wake up feeling tired,you rush around from work,straight to visit a Sixth form with your eldest child and wonder where on earth the years have gone,it only seems like yesterday we were waving her off for her first day at school and now her last days there are looming large.
One of those days when you miss someone so bad,you would literally give anything to hear their voice or see their face for real,not just in the dreams that feel so real they can be heartbreaking at times.
One of those days when being a single parent hits you hard~for no particular reason other than simply because some days are just hard.
Everyday is a juggle but I guess some days the weight of what we juggle feels heavier and today was ‘one of those days’.❤x
Yesterday’s antics~rope swinging, tree climbing and bbqing and yes I did all 3 of those! I was slightly concerned that I might fall out of a certain tree~but as you can imagine I literally made it to the first branch and lets face if would of had a soft landing hehehe.❤x
These kids drive me to wine~even though they aren’t here! They’ve been gone for less than 2hours and I miss them already.
Its too quiet and I have no arguments to referee.
This co~parenting business doesn’t get any easier, saying goodbye to them with a smile on my face, then having a few quiet tears when I shut the door.
Don’t get me wrong I am grateful that they have both parents who love and care for them so much,and step parents who play a huge part in their life’s too.
I am grateful that between us~that’s a whole lot of love to go around.
Sometimes though knowing they are off to make memories without me,sharing times I will never know about,it does pull on my heart strings. It just goes to show you never really know where this path of life will take you.
All you can do is keep moving forwards,keep smiling and keep loving. Life is too short for anything less.❤x
We enjoyed an upside down day yesterday,celebrating my big girls birthday.
Somehow she is 15yrs old~I am not sure how that is possible, surely I am not old enough?! ❤x
This was yesterday but I got a little distracted by trying (unsuccessfully) to fix my hoover and forgot to post!
You know that feeling you get when its your day off and your going out for coffee and you decide that instead of your boring flats you will wear heels instead?
In my head this seemed like a fab idea, all was going well until we had parked the car and began walking to the coffee shop. After a few steps it became apparent that the gaps in the walkway were not designed with any one wearing heels in mind as pretty soon with almost every step I took I found myself getting my heel caught.
To avoid breaking either my ankles or my boots I had to adopt a unique style of walking which consisted of almost walking sideways~think of a crab scuttling around and you probably won’t go far wrong for a lifelike image!
Fortunately the coffee was good as was the company so I can’t complain.
I decided that a change of footwear was probably necessary before the school run this afternoon to avoid further embarrassment and indeed injury.
Whilst at home I noticed my boy had left half an easter egg casually lying around in his room~he is either very trusting or a bit silly leaving it in my line of vision~fortunately for him, I neither hid it or ate it but I must confess that the latter was extremely tempting.
After the school run it was a typical afternoon, 2 trips to tesco (because one is never enough quite clearly!), I made dinner and was contemplating washing up when I had a very nice suprise delivery from a friend of mine in the form of a ‘halo’ ice cream it tasted fab and the wrapper made me giggle hehe.
I then proceeded to torture myself by taking the hoover apart, well most of it apart from 2 screws which refused to be moved, after nearly 2 hours it remains still not fixed on the lounge floor~well tomorrow is another day and all that jazz.
Bedtime has rolled around in a flash and I am hopeful for some sleep, as much as I am rocking the bags big enough to get a months worth of shopping in underneath my eyes, a good snooze would be much appreciated.
Well one can dream or not as the case may be! ❤ x
When you confiscate the teenagers phone and get constantly reminded by them that you have done so!
So far the conversations are going some thing like this~
‘What time do you finish your club after school?’
‘ Well it should be about 4.30pm but might be earlier or later, obviously I won’t be able to let you know as I don’t have my phone.’
‘ What time is Dad picking you up later?
He said he would text me and let me know but obviously I haven’t had my phone so…..’
So far this is my personal favourite ‘Have you done your revision for your test?’
‘No because EVERYTHING I need for that is on my phone which I don’t have.
Oh ok and you have no other means of getting the information that you need?’ ‘No of course not!’
‘No worries then I will just phone the school and explain the situation about you being phoneless and why you are in fact without said phone and maybe your teacher could help you??’
‘Urgh Muuuummmmmm!!!! Its fine I will manage!’
Funny that I thought you might.
Teenagers hey.❤ x
You may recall our famous chocolate fridays~well may I now introduce you to chocolate thursday. Every thursday I collect the smallest members of the crazy gang from school and buy chocolate for all the kids (the biggest child included too hee hee).
I however have re~embarked on my weight watchers journey so treated myself to some more daffodils~don’t worry I realise I can’t eat them instead!
We also managed to grab a coffee this morning and mine looked pretty cool. ❤x
Dad this ones for you~I know you would be surprised that me your youngest daughter and biggest wimp going went and had this done today! I was quite suprised myself to be honest but these words~your words mean so much to me.
Dad I miss you more than words can say. I heard your song before I went in so I know I have your approval.❤x
Roughly 14 yrs ago this little one used to come to work with me.
Fast forward to today and my little bundle is now a teenager and going back to said nursery for work experience!
To say I feel old and cant believe it would be an understatement but there you have it.
Time flies and everything changes,we grow, we live,love and learn and in the blink of an eye things change and before you know it you go from having a tiny baby to an independent teen fast approaching the last year of high school education.
Dream big my girl.❤x
Another wonderful weekend is drawing to a close. It’s been a busy one thats for sure. Friday night was an evening of giggles and wine with the girls.
Saturday morning saw an early start for a trip to Ikea~which was good fun all round and we celebrated surviving the trip with all 4 small people in tow with more wine and a chilled evening on the new cuddle chair which is now officially my favourite place to sit for sure!
Today we had a lovely sunny walk along the seafront spotting fishing boats and enjoying the sun. After some chocolate cake baking we had another stroll making the most of the afternoon sun and fresh air. Bedtime will be an early one for sure tonight.❤x